It’s hard to be on top of all the things all the time. A regular frustration I have with myself is that I’m always on top of and nailing a couple areas of life and simultaneously neglecting the rest. I think this describes all of us, but being a parent has made me hyper-aware of the areas of my life that are getting neglected.
Case in point: I started the 100 day project back in April with lofty goals. I nailed it for nearly two weeks, then began faltering on the “share your work online” side of the challenge, then skipped a day completely and before I knew it I was resigning from the challenge. It isn’t that I ran out of ideas or energy for the challenge, it’s that I was nailing the challenge at the expense of my family’s routine and this little family of mine comes first.
I stepped away from my phone, camera, and blog a couple months ago for a similar reason – so I could be more present with Amelie. But that has been at the expense of not taking as many pictures or documenting our little outings. So I’m torn… I want to be completely present and not glued to a screen but I also want to go back to photographing and recording as much as I did through Amelie’s first year. It’s a hard balance to strike.
But the reason I’m bringing all of this up is because while printing photos for Amelie’s baby book, I let myself get completely engulfed in my “Amelie” archive folder and it was a beautiful treasure trove of memories. I’m incredibly thankful that I took so many photos and videos (soo many!) because even though much of it was seemingly insignificant (things like Amelie blowing bubbles or turning a toy over and over for five minutes), those days are already over and gone. And if I’m already reveling in those five minutes of my baby blowing sloppy spit bubbles, then I know I’ll be even more thankful for these archives as those days become even more distant.
So what I’m trying to say is that I want to document more because I enjoy it and I need to document more because I know I’ll be increasingly glad I did it. I’m not trying to take on any enormous projects or overreaching challenges… I just want to get back into my old habit of taking too many photos, recording too long of videos, and blogging our little adventures. Because I need to remember every detail of our adventures with this little nugget.